I can’t take this leap of faith…can I?

Can you recall certain times in your life when you needed to take a leap of faith?

A time when you believed in something or someone based on blind faith rather than evidence?

I call these MOT points. Those ‘Moment of Truth’ times when perhaps you felt uncertain or that there was an element of risk involved and you were considering going outside your comfort zone.

As a mum, I can honestly hold my hand up high and say my days are filled with MOT points and especially in the early days of motherhood, being on maternity leave and then going back to that magical place, where there are no children…work!

Launching myself into motherhood with this hazy, romantic notion of how our family would grow in a nurturing, loving home was, for us, a moment of truth.  I had this inner purpose to want to become a mother yet, time was marching on and I had not long come out of a divorce and starting see my now husband, Jerry.  But, that inner voice didn’t stop and I felt that children was the answer to take my relationship with Jerry to the next level.  It was scary but exciting at the same time. We prepared as much as we could, but there is only so much preparation you can do before you just need to let life guide you in the direction you’re meant for.

I know why Jerry and I made the decision in a moment of truth time to have two children.

Because the first one was an angel.

The second?

Feral.

No matter how much preparation we did, nothing could have prepared for the ten ton truck that hit us when number two arrived…

  • When she didn’t feed right…
  • when she cried all day and all night…
  • when she developed reflux…
  • when she demanded to be rocked until she slept…
  • when she woke in the night and refused to go back to sleep, when we were thrown out of baby swimming lessons because her screams were too loud…
  • when we were asked to leave soft play because she was again ‘too loud’…
  • when our marriage started to break down because I thought Jerry a) didn’t help enough and b) didn’t understand me…
  • when I stopped going out and meeting with my mummy friends because I felt like a failure…
  • when I lost my mojo, my confidence and my mind…
  • when I stopped caring about what I wore and how I looked…
  • when I turned from nurturing mother to angry mother…
  • when I blamed my husband for everything going wrong…
  • when I secretly couldn’t wait for maternity leave to end so I could go back to work…
  • when I attempted to give my second baby back to the community midwives…
  • when I went back to work and had two children under 4 at home…
  • when I was not offered any mental health support by my employer…
  • when I asked for some flexibility from my manager with my job role and it was refused…
  • when I realised my job role had changed because my employer assumed I couldn’t cope but they didn’t ask…

I did start questioning myself.

Perhaps my gut instinct might have been wrong? Maybe my Moment of Truth time when my gut told me ‘go on, have kids…it’ll be fun!” was out of alignment or just having a laugh at the expense of my mental health, my body and my marriage.

Sometimes you just want someone to tap you on the shoulder in the midst of this emotional motherhood turmoil and whisper in your ear “It’s okay…you’re doing okay.”  “Things will work out.”  “What you’re going through, feeling and experiencing is normal.”   “You’re doing a great job and yes, it’s tough but you’ll get through this shit-storm.”  “You’ll be stronger on the other side.”  “There is a reason for all of this that you’re going through and let’s untangle that mess in your mind together.”  “I’ve got you.”

You just want someone to be there for you without having to admit you really need someone and we all want to predict what comes next and determine our exact future path and the outcome.

But that just isn’t how life works.

We can define what we want and how we want to go about making it happen, and then we have to give over to the uncertainty of life. We have to…

Trust

So, here’s the deal. A leap of faith is NOT blind. There is nothing blind about it!

A leap of faith is utilising your intuition. It’s that deep knowing that doesn’t go away.  It whispers to you and keeps tugging at your shirt tail.  It’s your passion or inspiration that draws you towards that leap.

Once you’ve prepared as much as you can, and you’ll notice you will still have unanswered questions (questions you might never get answers to), then it all comes down to trusting yourself.

You invest in faith, not fear. You have to trust yourself.

I mean, have you noticed how you might trust other people more than you would trust your own self?  It’s normal for us to put our intuition to the bottom of the pile and ignore it, hoping someone else will tell us what to do, right?

One of the things you learn on your coaching journey of discovery with me is that instead of pinning your faith on other people and the advice of others, I help you to put your faith in yourself and your own ability.

Deciding to work with me to help you with your path back into work is the first step on your journey and I know that can feel like a really big step…a big leap even…especially if you haven’t experienced coaching before.

I help my clients to remember who they really are and what they’re capable of so that they can return to work and hit the ground running.  They then go on to excel in their job, becoming happy and fulfilled at home too.

It’s all about trusting in yourself that this can really happen.

If you want to find out more, I would love the opportunity to talk to you.  Just send me an email to julie@themumalmighty.com and I can give you a call back for a chat and it would be an honour to see how I could help you to feel stronger, more confident and happier about navigating back to your workplace.

Go on…take a leap.  I got you.